Tainted blogged

All I want is a brother to look up to.

When I was a kid my parents would always ask me if I looked up to my brother and I would say no but they would insist that I did. I would look down at my feet and not be able to assert myself because I knew they were right and I knew I was wrong and I knew that my brother was sitting on the couch a few feet away trying not to care. And I knew that I wanted to be like him.

Right now I'm sitting in my basement trying to concentrate on reading a book for school and my brother is fiddling around with his guitar, and then his sitar, and then his keyboard. The words I try to read are lost in a see of chords and twangs and do-dos. Words dissolve into sounds dissolve into thoughts.

People mention my brother as a joke to me. It hurts yet it doesn't. I'm numb to the pain but I want to feel it. He's my brother. He's spiraling out of control and he's doing drugs and he has a detention and he missed the detention and my mom's crying and my dad is yelling obscenities and I'm reading words that dissolve into sounds that dissolve into thoughts.

My brother once told me that he had a feeling he was going to die young. He said that when he was 8 he knew he was only going to live to be 25. I told him that he's crazy but something in my heart told me that he was right. He's microwaving something right now and I fear that the microwaves are giving him cancer that is going to lie dormant until he is 25.

He talks to me about why God is stupid and why evolution isn't. I tell him that dogs become dogs and he gets belligerent and walks away. I try to do my homework but instead I get on Neoseeker because no one sees me crying there. I cry tears of anger and of sadness and of remorse for losing a brother at the age of 25 who is upstairs watching TV. The tears are hot and nonexistent but I wish they were real.

In my mind I call him a joke but I am still waiting for a punchline. All that comes is bitterness and remorse and I try to look past the drugs but all I see is the cigars. I think of a good time we had and the first thing that comes to mind is his guitar. I try to envy his musical talents but I don't like the guitar. The guitar in my mind reeks of failure and marijuana.

All I want is a brother to look up to.

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Harvest Moon girl blogged

So I met up with Shane yesterday and decided that I'm not quite normal because the encounter simply wasn't awkward enough. Haha, the same thing happened when I hung out with Angela. It seriously felt as if I were just meeting up with an old friend to go hang out and just walk around the city. Granted, I have known Shane for two years, but I still feel like I'm breaking the meeting online friends code simply because it felt all too natural.

Yesterday was crazy fun though. I met up with Shane at his hotel around 2 p.m. and we pretty much walked around the city for 4 hours. Then I invited him to dinner at la Plataforma Churrascaria, one of my favorite rodizios (yum). Sorry for lying about the check, Shane, but I wasn't about to let you pay for half the bill when I was the one who invited you out to dinner. We then went to go watch Spamalot and had an absolute blast. I also had the opportunity to meet the Byrnes! And missed my train because I ended up talking with Papa and Mama Byrne for an hour and a half, oh dear. All in all, the entire day was so much fun.

ANGELA was supposed to come along, but she was being a cootiehead and decided she would rather impersonate a chipmunk. We therefore decided that we were going to force her to join us on a trip to Dublin.

Oh, for all of you KFC Cake nonbelievers, I'll be taking a picture of it the next time I get KFC (although that in itself rarely happens).



Bloggie, Jack light Jenny's lunch box on fire the other day! Unfortunately, he missed her hair so she still has her golden locks! Ugh, whenever I see her I'm reminded of Goldilocks and the Three Bears! Seriously, what's so great about having hair that blinds others? That's not even nice!!!

On the bright side, he saw Jenny beating Jack up today at lunch and told me that he never knew Jenny was so violent. I'm not one to spread rumors, so I told him that all she had done was run over Jack's Transformers lunch box with her Barbie car and then stole his lunch. Of course, I told him that I had given Jack my apple and yoohoo because I didn't want him to be hungry. Bloggie, he said I was really nice and even offered me the pink starburst! I love the pink starbursts! I think this means we're meant to be! *doodles hearts all over her blog*


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Mocking Alvin blogged



Ugh, i am fed up being bombarded by these rediculous adverts whenever i watch TV after 11pm. Sure, at first they were funny, but they are beginning to annoy me. I don't know if you people lucky enough to live outside of the UK get these adverts, so i provided an example video. Do i really want to pay 50p per text to chat to a hot, single girls in my area...no i don't.

How many people actually text into these things? I am kind of tempted to just to see what the response is. Not just those adverts, all of them that fall into that category of "text in to find something out!" Not only do i not want to flirt with sluts via text, i also don't want to know what sex my baby is going to be, the initials of my next lover or how compatible i am with my girlfriend...i mean how many people take pride/joy in knowing that a random name generator thingy thinks you are 80% right for someone. Or even worse, do people break-up with someone because this thing tells them they are only 2% compatible.

Probably not, but why do they do it then? Fun...haha, don't make me laugh.

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BadWolf blogged

Hi guys.

Recently I have been getting into HTML coding all thanks to Lukaeu offering to do the basic layout for my neohome, such as the Image Mapping and Background. ^^ I'm not that great since I only started yesterday, but already I can piece a few things together.

I only just found this blog contraption so if you read this please comment on how lovely it is. xD

So yeah, I think I'll update this weekly or every few days to keep you guys updated with my life and shiz.

Bye!


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jespomo blogged

I've been in France this weekend, mainly to get experience of driving abroad which turns out to be surprisingly easy. If you can drive you can drive anywhere. We took the Eurostar down on the Friday which is so much less hassle than getting the Ferry. We spent about 20 minutes in the terminal before our train was called for boarding, drive straight on the train, read a book for 20 minutes and then you're on the other side, where you drive straight off and into a shopping centre. Easy.

On the Saturday we spent the day in Lille which is a pretty nice place, the only problem with French cities is that places aren't usually signposted in advance so usually when you see where you're meant to be going you've already gone past it, which means we spent around twice as much time driving around as we wanted.



For lunch we decided to do what everyone would do in Lille, visit a Brothel. L'Omnia is a brothel turned porno theatre turned restaurant. Unfortunately the only videos on show these days is a French music channel so that would explain the amount of children inside. Even more disappointing were the staff, they weren't pornstars. Or if they were, they were bad ones.

In the evening we were at the Stade Lille Metropole to get a taste of French Football. Lille vs Toulouse was the match and it clearly inspired Toulouse fans to make the 555 mile trip instead of watching the rugby, a massive 20 away fans turned up, seated in what was basically a zoo cage.




The stadium itself is basically an athletics stadium, LOSC are only there temporarily while their new stadium is constructed. I can't really speak for the Premiership as I've only been to one Premiership game but it seemed to me like the security is much stricter in France. Every single person who entered the stadium is frisked and my ticket was checked 3 times before I could get to my seat.

The standard of the game itself really wasn't too far different from watching a game between two top League One teams, neither side showed anything special. Ligue One has an almost SPL like domination at the top, Lyon have won 7 years running and are top again this year by 5 points. The first half was a little dull, the only excitment coming from some dodgy decision making by the referee and the booing of every touch from Toulouse striker Andre-Pierre Gignac. Obviously some history there.



The second half finally brought some excitement, it got pretty heated as players from both sides seemed to dive and then make the most of it on the floor, both sides picked up bookings, Florent Belmont for Lille getting his for abusing the linesman who made some very poor decisions. Despite being the poorer team throughout the game Toulouse scored first from a freekick that shouldn't even have been given. Lille finally started sending everyone forward after that and got the goal from a long distance driven freekick in the last minute of normal time.

I guess you get what you pay for though as the ticket price for an adult was about the same as it would be to sit in London Road for a Posh match and the quality of football was about the same.

Next Match Attending

Tranmere v Posh
9/12/08 7.45pm
Prenton Park

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The Deathwind blogged

(Warning: The following blog post contains copius amounts of giant robot and general nerdery.)

Finally. The end of EX Hard mode is in sight. Episode 42 of 43, but due to my hatred of going out of my way for Battle Masteries I won't be able to go to Episode 43, so for me this is the end. And oh God has it been a hell of a ride. There is a point in any OG2 playthrough where your groups combined awesomeness renders the rest of the game fairly challenge free. For me, this time it was Episode 27 where I discovered Wildwurger L. More specifically, Wildwurger L's Stun Shot. A one use weapon that renders the target immobile for a turn. Sounds useless, right? Wrong. Combined with Armor Breakers, one turn is enough to drag even one of the really strong lategame bosses down to pitiful levels of health. And through this, they can't even counter you or launch an attack on their phase. Yes, that's right, you get an entire turn of absolutely pummeling a boss with no way for them to retaliate. Combine this with Leona Garstein, the only pilot who gets Fury- which lets the next attack bypass any and all shields the target may have- that isn't parading around in a super robot with an epic combination attack (all of which except possibly the Royal Heartbreaker [see header] are essential to any mass sodomising of an endgame bosses), and you have one hell of a gamebreaker.

So satisfying, even if the endgame bosses came down to this procedure:

Cast Strike and Fury on Leona, have her Stun Shot whichever boss needs killng this turn, have Latooni, Ring or Radha cast Enable on Leona, have her cast Fury again, then this time use Armor Break on the poor victim, cast Valor on everyone (and Zeal for those who have it) and Strike on everyone who doesn't have 100% hit rate (or just everyone if the boss has Double Image). Proceed to hit the boss with everything in your arsenal. If it survives, cast Renew on Leona, and have her Strike/Fury/Stun Shot again and continue pummeling. Most everything dies in one or two turns of this, except possibly Neu Reggiseur and Stern Reggiseur, but I won't be seeing Sterny this playthrough (hahaha not enough BMs for Episode 43), and Neu is just a pain in general. Oh well, we live on. Except the poor people that decided that messing with the OG Numbers was a good idea. It just isn't.

On that merry note, I suppose I should write something for those of you who have no idea what the bloody hell I'm talking about. Unfortunately, it's my exams. So far, they've only been slightly harder than a Stunned OG2 boss.

Spanish: Reading was Foundation Tier, writing they let us have dictionaries. Including ones from home if we had them. Cue me with a frackin' huge Collins dictionary and everyone else with the dinky little school dictionaries.

Maths: Maths is my best subject. When we got the scores back, it turned out that over the two papers, half of the year got less than what I got on one. I don't parade this around too much for fear of being lynched.

RE: So, uh, not mentioning any form of deity at all still gets me a B. I love how certain people belive religious belivers share their faith by "Islamic suicide bombers". No, someone actually wrote that. Mind you, I'm not much better, since I was resisting the urge to write "send the bloody Jehovas witnesses to your doorstep" for that question. Oh well. I've played that card already this year.

English: Actually nearly finished this one, unlike every single other English paper I've ever done. However, GRR FIVE MORE LINES. FIVE. >:E

Science: Haven't had this back yet, should have it tomorrow. I don't think I did horribly, but I was annoyed when I found out the relevance of the photography question (hey look, photography is coming back to haunt me!).

History: Not yet, that exam is on Tuesday.

Graphic Products: Not yet, that exam is on Wednesday. I know I'm failing this one, though. =\

Next post to come whenever the hell I feel like it. Time to go back to Episode 42 and the uploading of Header V2.
Dark Arcanine blogged

Yes, I recently read the blog entry (as usual) by my good friend Angie. While attempting to be comforting as she mentioned something about squidgy cheeks, I realised that I too have an oral tale to tell.

A couple of months back, I had the honour of finding out I might need braces. I thought fantastic, most people don't do braces. I managed to make myself feel better over time by reassuring myself that light blue braces would look incredibly sexy on me.

An x-ray later on revealed this wouldn't be my path, yet. They said I needed some teeth out, the baby ones having stayed in forever. I asked how many? The reply was eight.

The idea was to do two visits, ended up being the one. No gas, just a load of needles. The needle was darn big, no exaggeration. It made shots and blood sampling needles look tiny in comparison. It took a couple of hours before he finished, thankful I hadn't given him a mouthful like he just gave to me. I was left with a bleeding mouth for several hours, eating meals was terrible for weeks.

Good news? No more need for braces, or 99% sure anyway. It's all straightening out nicely, not to mention chicks dig gaps in teeth... yes, I tell myself that as well.

I didn't get cheeks like Angie though, so no smexy puffy pics for you... for now...

Anyway, enjoy the pics of the teeth!



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Wolfwood blogged

What's inside this ginormous box I had to wait a few days to pick up from my local post office?




Why, it's an equally ginormous PVC figure of Hayate Yagami from Magical Lyrical Nanoha StrikerS, produced by Alter and now shipping to manchildren everywhere!







btw that last picture made me realize how much I suck ass at taking photographs. And here I thought I was gonna be cool with my DSLR I picked up a year back. :(


Anyways, after much unboxing and plenty of Bob-the-Buildin', the figure is ready for display. I apologize for the overpowering lighting and fairly out-of-place locale to be taking snapshots. I tried my best to get the colors accurate through custom white balancing. =\ And yes that is the dinner table, complete with snacks and tabasco sauce.







Nice little touches like these are appreciated:


Represent! Lieutenant Colonel Hayate Yagami is ranked SS in Lost Property Riot Force 6!


Awww, Hayate even comes with her unison device to help control her l33t powers, Reinforce II ("Zwei"):


Even Reinforce II gets attention to detail! Like most recently released figures, this set was made in China so my hat's off to the workers who had to produce tons of these for Alter. I also suck ass at macro photography. Maybe I should stick with point-and-shoots with macro mode. :(





Don't mess with their Unison! Yes, Hayate's hair color is different since she comes with a whole different head. The only difference between the two "option parts" is the hair color to represent her Unison with Reinforce II.







Well that's a wrap this time! I laughed when I finally received the figure, then cried when I realized I had nowhere to put it. Had to do much moving around, for my room is a nightmare.

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kik36 blogged

Well it's that time of year again, a time for joy, peace and prosperity. Unfortunately for those caught up in the recession none of those apply this year. Many people are losing their jobs and can't afford any type of Christmas. I know a lot of friends and family going through some very rough times this year, and I'm just thankful as hell that my wife and I still have a job.

We both work at an aviation company that manufactures avionics equipment such as comm and navigation radios. The aviation industry goes up and down like a roller coaster, so believe me we're counting our blessings. Our company is owned by Cobham for those of you in the UK who may know of the name.

So needless to say after reading stories about companies laying people off by the hundreds we feel extremely grateful that we can afford to give the kids a Christmas at all this year. Even though our budget has definitely tightened up, we will still have a pretty decent Christmas overall.

I don't think I will be getting any games this year for Christmas, but I'm ok with that since I have my own ways of generating games for myself even in the tightest of times. And I have plenty on the shelf that need my attention. I'm thinking '09 will definitely be the year of the RPG in my house while I clean up some of our outstanding debt. RPG's are great for wasting hundreds of hours of time and keeping you occupied LMAO

Lately I have picked up my interest in an on again off again relationship with the oddity that is 'LEGO'. I've always had an interest in LEGO since I was a little kid, but our family could never really afford much of it. In reality the shit's expensive. I remember every once in a while we would go to a family friend's house and their kids had tubs and tubs of LEGO. They would destroy their LEGO.....hammers, lighters, etc and I remember thinking it was such a damn waste.

Anyways I tried through out the years a few times to pick up my secret love only to be humiliated and ridiculed by friends, family, and of course whatever idiot I was dating at the time. So it was with great reluctance that I looked into the LEGO world again. I immediately got interested once again and ordered the Advent calendar and a couple of small kits.....I couldn't help it! LMAO Luckily my wife is understanding.

Well for the most part. I found out LEGO is releasing new Pirate themed kits, and I am a sucker for damn near anything Pirate themed. In fact I hope to be going to the Renaissance Fair this year in Pirate attire. ^.^ Anyway, I showed my wife this nice pirate ship and she just rolled her eyes at me. She doesn't quite understand the draw to them, and to be painfully honest I don't think I do either. LMFAO

She's not sure what I would do with them after they are built.....ummmmm tear them apart.....DUH!!!! LMAO If nothing else the kids will enjoy building them with me as well so I'm sure they will get their use.

Beyond my LEGO fetish coming out, the rest of the year looks to be productive as well. I plan on figuring out the Neoseeker blog page so that I can set it up nice and proper(I need a tutorial). And I plan on rolling out a new game review rating system very quickly. Rather than the 100 point scale I've been using the last year, I will be cleaning it up a bit and dropping down to a 5 star rating instead. I have quite a few games to review including LittleBigPlanet, GTA IV, Penny Arcade Episode 1, Battlefield Bad Company and more....not to mention a few older games such as Warhawk and Dragon Quest. So keep your eyes peeled in the next week as I expect to find the time amongst our Christmas celebrations to make all this hapen!

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VulcanRaven blogged

You* were right, the whole album review idea would never work. I just don't have the patience for it. I'll leave it to the "professionals" over at Rolling Stone. I think I have a mild case of ADD.

Today I glued my jeans. The button on my jeans, specifically. The button on my favourite pair of jeans, to be even more specific. It somehow snapped apart last year while I was driving. I won't go into the details about how it happened, but it happened, and I was quite traumatized. Needless to say I was pretty upset, because this sort of thing always happens to my most prized articles of clothing. In elementary school I ripped my favourite t-shirt right down the side after getting it caught on a branch while chasing my cousin through the forest, my prized pair of K-Swiss shoes were stained and ruined in high school, and just a few weeks ago a mouse chewed a hole through one of my favourite sweaters as it lay in my pile of dirty laundry in the basement. It must be karma. Anyway, so back to this button. Well, I was able to snap it back in place afterwards, but it was always rather loose and every time someone yanked at my pants in a sexual manner the button would go flying into oblivion and completely kill the mood. So yesterday I finally decided that I had enough. I went downstairs and nabbed a bottle of super glue off the shelf and glued that *bleep*er back together to avoid any embarrassing mishaps in the near future. Well imagine my surprise when I was putting on my jeans today and the button snapped right the hell off and shot across my room! I was so angry that I even threw some of my textbooks in a fit of rage! So I glued it again, and now I'm here. I haven't worn these jeans again since, and to be honest I'm quite afraid to because I don't want this God-awful button to snap off again, it's driving me mad. I don't want to replace the button altogether either, because it has sentimental value and just wouldn't feel right. This all might have something to do with the fact that they're perhaps a little tight, but I can't help it. Baggy jeans make my ass look bad so I have no choice but to go with these. In case anyone's wondering, they're a size 31.

Tomorrow I'm going to a football game with my good friend Brandon: The Compulsive Liar. He's a good guy, but it's hard to distinguish between what's fact and what's fiction whenever he says something. Oh well. See, he got me a Dolphins jersey for my birthday (one of my few friends to actually get me something, cheap bastards. In fact, I bought my friends all something on my own birthday, and they didn't get me anything!) I'm too nice. Anyhow, this jersey set him back a few hundred dollars, I'm sure, and I'm not one to not return the favour when someone does something overly generous like that. So I got him a ticket to the game with me this Sunday. Hmmmm, Sunday's in ten minutes. I'm looking forward to it, especially the Buffalo Jills. The tickets were a ripoff and probably not worth it, but I figure this is the only football game I'll ever see in my life so why the hell not? Besides, I've been going to work with Brandon for the last two weeks while the University has been on strike, so I've more than made up for the price of it. And Toni, that's why I sent you a text at 6:30 in the morning, I was waiting for Brandon to finish showering, and I was inside his house awkwardly waiting alone in the dark, so I figured there would be no better way to spend my time then to send you a surprise text message.

This is my toe. I had the sides removed last May because it was badly infected. It was the most painful experience I can recall. The freezing needles alone were pretty painful, but the fact that my toe wasn't even completely frozen made it that much worse when the doctor started ripping out my toenail. I bit into my arm, and I started bleeding. That made it even worse. And now to top it all off my toenail now looks pretty damn *bleep*. I love toes... but not my own. And not any other guy's toes, except for The Dude's in The Big Lebowski, but in my defence I thought they were a woman's feet at first.



*By "you" I mean me.


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Artificer blogged

I spent some time today making a video tutorial on Firebug, an add-on for Mozilla Firefox that is amazingly helpful for web development. It can help you to cut a significant amount of time from whatever you make, whether it's a blog theme, NeoHome, or your own web site. Check it out!





Thanks to Aya Chan for letting me use her blog as an example. And yes, I know my jokes are not funny. :(

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Tainted blogged

The DS' innovative dual-screen design and touch screen interface has brought about a lot of ambitious efforts from companies. Games like Trauma Center: Under the Knife and Elite Beat Agents show how well the unique setup of the DS can be utilized to create a new and fun gaming experience.

But if there's one company who's taken the touch screen design to a new level, it's 5th Cell. The company developed Drawn to Life and Lock's Quest, two games whose gameplay mechanics are almost entirely dependent on the DS touch screen. And the latest offering from that company looks to push the innovation to a new level. The game's title: Scribblenauts.

Scribblenauts is so ambitious because basically, the game is only limited by your own imagination. The game is a platforming collector game, where you collect things called "Starites." But these Starites are not in a place that is normally accessible to you, so you must use some sort of help.

That's where the fun comes in. You get to choose what tool you use. So if the Starite is in a tree, you can spell out "ladder" on the touch screen, and then you could climb it and get the Starite. Or, maybe you would rather have a bird that would fly up into the tree and retrieve the Starite. The possibilities are endless, and that's why I am so amazed at this innovative design.

IGN got the chance to interview the creator of this game, which you can read here. He talks about the limitations of the design process as well as the idea behind it.

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IGN: Okay, so in the trailer – that people need to check out, by the way – you can see that you write down a ladder and can then climb up it, right? Now could you also turn that ladder on its side and instead light it on fire and the tree would then burn, since it's all made of would.

Miah: You could, yup. You can flip objects, you can take an axe and cut the ladder in half if you wanted – not sure why you'd do it, but you could if you wanted – and even if it wouldn't help anything in that situation you can do it. That's half the fun of the game really. You can just do anything. It's all about messing around with these objects and properties and seeing what you come up with and how you can solve problems. That's what's really fun about showing off this game to people so far. They look at it and say "Wow. So wait, can I do this and this and this" and then of course, yes, you can.
After reading that interview, I am incredibly excited for the game. The interview hinted at possible online play, which makes me even more excited. I think it kind of sounds like a DS Little Big Planet, but maybe I'm getting ahead of myself. For now, enjoy the interview as well as the attached gameplay trailer.



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chautemoc blogged



Here's a better question: why do 955,646 people care? I'm hesitant about drawing more attention to them, but it's hard to resist posing the idea. Sigh. Here, to compensate:



MUSIC. Remember that old thing?

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