Spirit Walker blogged

I'm writing this here, because I'm not sure where else I could write it. The only upside to everyone I use to know on this site moving on is that I'm basically talking into the void now.

Whenever I feel nostalgic, Neoseeker firmly comes to mind. I was 12 when I joined this site. Back then it was always buzzing with activity. When I look back there are people I would talk to regularly, but not to the level where I feel like they're friends lost. I saw one online the last time I logged on and was tempted to message. What would I say though? "Hey, remember me?? We never really talked much but I've made a connection in my mind of you, role playing, and my childhood?? Please respond?"

I don't know if we can still say hindsight is 2020, after the sugar show of a year that turned out to be. It may not be 2020, but it is amusing. When I was 12 my problems seemed so big. At 24 my problems seem so big. I wonder when I'm 36 and realise my problems now aren't as bad are they seem. Or will I think that living through the worst pandemic in 100 years is a justifiable reason to feel my problems are big?

Probably the latter in fairness.

At 12 I was worried about school tests, and whether my friends were just pretending to like me. At 24 I'm worried about bills, and whether my friends are just pretending to like me. I recently was thinking that maybe my depression was reactive, but looking back I wonder how long its been there. I was always described as a 'sensitive child'. Later I thought that was code for g a y, or anxious. Plot twist, you can be both. If I've always been sad, will I always be sad?

I hope not.

I miss logging on here and escaping into the world of role playing with strangers. I wonder if they were escaping too. I wonder if that mod who had to ban me several times because I couldn't stick to the 7 line rule is doing well. I wonder if I could stick to the seven line rule now. The length of my ramblings here make me hopeful.

I know I'm writing into the void, but like a message in a bottle, I hope someone reads this eventually. If you end up being someone from a friendliest long ago,

I hope you're well.
Polarity blogged

6. Nioh 2
5. Ghost of Tsushima
4. Spelunky 2
3. Hades
2. Ghostrunner
1. Trials of Mana

Ghostrunner spoke to the speedrunner in me, particularly given its fast-paced gameplay that requires quick yet precise plays in order to beat each level. Said levels ramp up the intensity with each new enemy type possessing more at their disposal and more enemies to take out. Even in terms of fast-paced gameplay, Spelunky 2 maintained what had made the original an indie classic, with a focus on efficiency and adaptability that few games got right... except for Hades, although Hades was less arcade-y in its roguelike approach and more like a full-blown game. Hades having an utterly captivating story and that distinct Supergiant Games style certainly helped it edge out slightly over Spelunky 2.

This year certainly had its fast-paced hits, but it also had its larger, more meticulous cuts. Ghost of Tsushima shares with Hades its richly detailed storytelling, but stands out due to its slick hack and slash gameplay - particularly during its intense boss fights that err heavily towards the samurai simulation that Sekiro (the one of like two games from last year that was a hit) was wont to be. Speaking of cool old-school Japanese shit, Nioh 2 maintains what the original Nioh had - essentially, if Ninja Gaiden and Dark Souls had a baby together, resulting in a more meticulously-paced hack and slash that still brought me right on back to the golden age of that style.

Trials of Mana may seem like a controversial pick on the surface. For me, it represents everything that this year had gotten right - it's a fast-paced action game with larger than life boss fights and a goddamn charming storyline that, even with some not-so great voice acting, manages to be highly captivating throughout. It being a remake of Seiken Densetsu 3 - the best of the series, don't @ me - likely helps this judgement, but ultimately, what seals the deal is the overall replayability. The game's a good ~18 hours long - the longest on this list, definitely - and yet I could go and play this game many times since it's so goddamn fun to go through. I wasn't sure, though, whether it would be fair to place Trials of Mana above Ghostrunner. Both are banner great games that represent everything I love in games, but what cinched it out for me was length, which makes the former a real bang for my buck and absolutely the game of the year for the first year of the new decade.

(if there is any demand for me to write up lists for 2015-2019, I'll be more than happy to write up those lists)
Gamerdude97 blogged

Found this blog from two years ago on a different website. Holy shit how much my life has changed since then.

Be humble.

Be grateful.

You can (almost) always change something bad to something better.

"It's 5 am April 24th 2018 and I've gotten next to nowhere since last time I blogged. I feel like my life is at a standstill. I'm still enjoying life as usual of course. However, I still have no job.

Listening to PH8 to clear my mind. Prepared to do it all over tomorrow like today.

Move forward with your life if you can. Being stuck is no good.

Life requires maintenance, and I'm off-schedule.

I'm going to bed.

Thurlow blogged

After the announcement, I am sorry but this Christmas there is no way that I am not seeing family and friends. You can do what you like, but I will be seeing them.
So, on Christmas Day, the following family will be at the table......
Auntie Stella & Uncle Jameson, with cousin Bailey, Malibu & Smirnoff, & the twins Gin & Tonic,
Scottish cousins Johnny Walker and Glen Moray, & from across the pond, bringing some old fashioned southern comfort with them my old cousins, Jack Daniels and Jim Beam,
My French mate Remy Martin & his friend Pernod, my Spanish mate Jose Cuevro & his cousin Martini, & Bianco, & her daughter tequila my Greek friends Ouzo & Sambuca,
My friends Brandy, Fosters, Snowball & mickey slim,
My Neighbours Captain Morgan & the Grants, the Bells, & the Cointreau's, & the Henneseys,
Uncle Charlie cant make an appearance though.....not good around the kids... although Auntie Stella is on a warning!!
DarshD blogged

Check out great freebies from GOG, Epic Games Store for PC gamers, and PlayStation Plus & Xbox Game Pass games for console gamers as we head towards the end of December 2020!

My video about it- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6q-hj073EuA

Links to grab them and for more info---
Epic Games Store- https://www.epicgames.com/store/en-US/
Epic Games News- https://www.epicgames.com/store/en-US/news/the-holiday-sale-returns-on-december-17-plus-15-free-games
Epic Games Tweet- https://twitter.com/EpicGames/status/1337064849285767170
The Epic Holiday Sale returns on December 17. Unwrap great deals and prepare for 15 Days of Free Games!
GOG.com (Prison Architect free to claim offer ends on Dec 19th, 2020! Claim to add it to your library today) – https://www.gog.com/game/prison_architect
GameSpot PlayStation games news- https://www.gamespot.com/articles/playstation-plus-free-games-for-december-2020/1100-6484877/
December 2020 PS Plus Free Games
Available December 1 to January 4
• Just Cause 4
• Rocket Arena
• Worms Rumble
• Bugsnax - PS5 version only

GameSpot Xbox Games news- https://www.gamespot.com/articles/xbox-games-with-gold-december-2020-grab-3-free-games-right-now/1100-6484825/
Xbox Games With Gold For December 2020
• The Raven Remastered: Available December 1 to 31 (Xbox One)
• Bleed 2: Available December 16 to January 15 (Xbox One)
• Stacking: December 16 to 31 (Xbox 360)
As always, both of December's free Xbox 360 games are playable on Xbox One thanks to backwards compatibility. Xbox Series X or Series S owners will also be able to download and play all four titles on their new consoles.

Happy Holidays!


Check out great freebies from GOG, Epic Games Store for PC gamers, and PlayStation Plus & Xbox Game Pass games for console gamers as we head towards the end ...

Thurlow blogged

All the organs of the body were having a meeting,
Trying to decide who was the one in charge.
"I should be in charge," said the brain, "Because I run all the body's systems, so without me nothing would happen."
"I should be in charge," said the blood, "Because I circulate oxygen all over so without me you'd all waste away."
"I should be in charge," said the stomach," Because I process food and give all of you energy."
"I should be in charge," said the legs, "because I carry the body wherever it needs to go."
"I should be in charge," said the eyes, "Because I allow the body to see where it goes."
I should be in charge," said the rectum, "Because I'm responsible for waste removal."
All the other body parts laughed at the rectum
And insulted him,
So in a huff, he shut down tight.
Within a few days, the brain had a terrible headache,
The stomach was bloated,
The legs got wobbly,
The eyes got watery,
And the blood was toxic..
They all decided that the rectum should be the boss
The Moral of the story?
Even though the others do all the work...
An Arse Hole is usually in charge
Cap blogged

This has been a prevalent theme in the past few Neoblog entries but I think I've hit the final point.

I cannot see a future for myself here. The main remnants of the community and I have different opinions on pretty much everything. It is to the point where I no longer feel like I belong anywhere. Some of it is my own fault. I'll attest to that.

In short. I'm behind. I'm so far behind in so many areas. Technology. Social cues. Conversation. General knowledge. Bringing myself up to speed is futile. The best way forward for me is to go away.

I'm noticed a strain on my relationship with many of you who I called friends. Friends became people that didn't mind me being around. Acquaintances became people who didn't want me around. The rest of you didn't need to change your views since you already don't like me.

So that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to change my password to something impossible to remember and log out permanently. Why bother writing this? I guess there's still a few of you that I don't mind and if you care enough, I have just one last "au revoir."
Spirit Walker blogged

I can't believe I was 12 when I made my account here. So much has changed (as it would want to - it's been 12 years). I don't remember telling NeoSeeker I was in university, but it's nice to know they're keeping tabs on me!
Murderer blogged

When we hear someone is terminally ill we get so shocked and feel sad for them...yet we seem to forget that we are all heading towards death, some faster than others. Death is a certainty beyond all others yet we act as if it is non existent and we will never face it.

On one hand we don't remember the time we will cease to exist and on the other hand we don't remember the time we hadn't existed. We pretend as though we have been here forever, earth our home. While we full well know there was once a time in which we did not exist.

Imagine you suddenly awake in a boat with no idea as to where it's heading. What will you do? Ask questions. Where am I heading? Why am I here? How did I get here? Yet on the boat of life we've become so engrossed on the things within the boat itself that we've forgotten we're even on a boat. No, you did not always exist, nor will you continue to do so. You've awakened to life just as you would be awakened on a random boat. Don't get distracted by the boat itself, for it is insignificant compared to the vast ocean. Figure out your destination before the journey ends.
Infinite blogged

“Let every nation know, whether it wishes us well or ill, that we shall pay any price, bear any burden, meet any hardship, support any friend, oppose any foe in order to assure the survival and the success of liberty.” - John F. Kennedy.
greenbean blogged

formerly: legendofurface. it's insane how quickly time goes by. i wanted to apologize to the people i've hurt in the past. there was no excusing that.
Cap blogged

I’ve been thinking about so stuff for a while off and on. Mostly about here.

I don’t really know what to do here anymore. I don’t feel like running my little games. I don’t want to talk to half of the active members on here. I just don’t know anymore. I keep logging on because of habit I guess. I spend downtime at work just refreshing a page that isn’t going to have anything new on it. I get maybe a few notifications a day. I just wonder what the point of all this is anymore.

I know I’m not really wanted around some parts either. It might be best that I get a new hobby away from here. There’s only like 2 or 3 people I like here anyway.

I say this a lot but this time I really just don’t have a clue what more to do to reengage myself here.
VinnyVideo blogged

Once upon a time, I made a blog. Occasionally I'd post rambling things about politics, sports, and technology here. Then I got busy finishing up my education and totally forgot this was a thing! (I also toyed with putting some longform blog posts on Tumblr, a medium terribly unsuited for such writing.)

COVID-19 has dramatically increased my free time in recent months, giving me an opportunity to catch up on a lot of things near the bottom of my personal backlog. The pandemic - and all the disruption it's caused - has also messed with my sense of time, and it's inspired me to reflect on some things.

There's no denying it: Old blog posts are seriously awkward! Especially things you wrote about when your age started with "1".

I was smarter than a lot of kids - or at least I had impeccable grammar and could fool people into thinking I possessed brain cells! However, I also didn't have a particularly vibrant social life (being home-schooled and living in a neighborhood full of senior citizens isn't too good for this), and I didn't have a clear idea about what I wanted to do next. I was also under the illusion that someone on the Internet actually cared about what I wrote!

I've given some thought to deleting my old blog posts - I don't think anyone's reading them, and since I often talked about politics, I worry about people digging up old posts and quoting things out of context. On the other hand, deleting old content feels like erasing history, and I probably haven't posted anything too horrible by the standards of Ancient Internet Posts.

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Awkwardness aside, blogging is still a beautiful thing. While blogging certainly isn't dead (WordPress is the most popular content management system on the Internet, after all), most people doing personal blogging have abandoned it in favor of newer forms of social media. While modern social media is perceived as "easier" in some ways, there's a charm from old-school blogs and forums that's lacking in the generic blue-themed walled gardens of newer social networks like Facebook and Twitter. Blogs are also a lot more searchable than video content.

More importantly, blog posts are usually at least a few paragraphs in length. And that's something we need more than ever. While brevity has its place, one of the reasons why places like Twitter are so toxic is they thrive on controversy - when you only have 140 (or 280) characters to work with, you really can't back up your opinions with solid facts, so short, incendiary posts tend to be the most popular ones. (Politicians, including the current leader of the free world, are not helping in this regard, either!)

I miss the older era of the online world - back when the Internet was more experimental, playful, decentralized, text-based, and desktop-first. I prefer small forums and blogs run by hobbyists, rather than huge social networks focused on selling data to make Silicon Valley rich.

It also feels that the hobbyist user is getting squeezed out of the modern online world. When people aren't coming to blows about politics, everything's about building a brand and monetizing a product. A decade ago, the online world was more experimental and playful, and I miss that. I'm not putting down folks who earn some spending money - or a living - from their online presence. But I also think it's great to have some spaces where people are focused on having fun and not worrying about building a brand.

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I miss the optimistic (and naive!) spirit of the older online world. I miss the days when people thought the Internet and social media were going to bring us together, not drive us apart; when the Information Age would usher in a new age of freedom and democracy, instead of becoming a tool for spreading misinformation. And with more people using their real names online, things can get a lot more vicious.

Now, I should be clear - the online world of the aughts had plenty of toxic attitudes. We've also made some progress - faster Internet speeds, far prettier cameras, and a stronger focus on accessibility are all positive steps. However, I miss the days when the online world was more carefree and upbeat.

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As previously mentioned, reading old blog posts is seriously awkward! Still, it's interesting to see how things have changed - or haven't.

December 2012: This is still an interesting post! I was wondering whether the Internet truly improve our lives. Modern digital technology now touches pretty much every aspect of our lives, and it's not feasible (or desirable) to try to eliminate PCs, smart phones, and high-speed Internet from our lives. Still, my conclusion to this post does a great job of summarizing how I still feel about this topic:

quote "Vinny"
Even though I've always used the Internet in a relatively responsible way, I find my productivity, creativity, and personal sanity go in a positive direction when I keep my "plugged in" time to a healthy limit.
November 2012: More recent politicians have paid lip service to the declining state of many small towns/Rust Belt big cities. Whether any of their actions have been successful is another story!

April 2010: There's been an increase in Black representation on TV commercials lately, though I still don't see a lot of Hispanic or Asian people. (That said, about the only TV I watch is football and baseball, which may not be a representative sample!)

March 2010: For the first and only time in my life, someone actually listened to one of my ideas. One of my proposals for fixing the old Bowl Championship Series for deciding the college football national champion is exactly what the modern College Football Playoff is now. I think the CFP is a very good model, and I hope they don't don't dilute it by adding another round.

August 2009: My town still isn't laid out well! In some ways it's probably gotten even worse.

May 2009: I wrote about a local leader of a religious organization who said and did some not-very-good things. A decade later, this same organization ran into dire financial straits, in part because they paid their leaders way too much instead of maintaining their buildings (or divesting property they no longer needed). There are so many ways this story could've had a happier ending.

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In other news, the pandemic has given me a lot more time to play games - and make some games of my own. Working from home and losing the 45-minute commute each way does wonders! So that's one of the few silver linings we've had in this crazy year.

Maybe I'll write some more stuff later. Or maybe I won't. Either way, thanks for reading this! I hope you're doing well and staying safe and all that good stuff.

- Vinny
vhayste blogged

My fanart for Pyra (Xenoblade Chronicles 2) and a custom Toyota Supra GT4.
More versions available at my Pixiv and FB pages