The jokes that i say are jokes about “problems” that i have so i hope if someone reads a joke that is joking about a disability they have i am sorry if it offends you in anyway

Back in November, I posted my list of my top 20 favorite movies of 2018. However, the year wasn't over yet at that point. Now that 2018 is officially in the history books, here is my updated list of films:

20. Venom
19. Aquaman
18. Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse
17. Solo: A Star Wars Story
16. Mary Poppins Returns
15. Halloween
14. Avengers: Infinity War
13. The Last Movie Star
12. Ralph Breaks the Internet
11. Won't You Be My Neighbor?
10. Ant-Man and the Wasp
9. Deadpool 2
8. Creed 2
7. Bohemian Rhapsody
6. Incredibles 2
5. First Man
4. Christopher Robin
3. Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom
2. Ready Player One
1. Black Panther

• The top 7 remain the same.
• Creed 2 breaks into the top 10 (I love me some Rocky movies), while Spider-Verse, Mary Poppins, Aquaman and Ralph Breaks the Internet push into the top 20.
• Infinity War stays put at 14, but Halloween and Solo drop lower due to some re-evaluation of them.
• Pacific Rim Uprising, The Meg, The House With a Clock in Its Walls, Smallfoot and Rampage all drop out.
• In addition to the films that drop out, I also saw Holmes and Watson, Teen Titans Go to the Movies and Tully last year. I hated all three (I'd also rank them in that particular order as worst movies of 2018).
• I still haven't seen Crazy Rich Asians, A Star is Born, Chappaquiddick, Isle of Dogs, A Quiet Place, Mission Impossible: Fallout, or Love: Simon. None are really my cup of tea.

What awaits in 2019? Stay tuned to find out.

When you imagine of the tyrant lizard king who do you think? T. rex undoubtedly. Not only was T. rex (aka T-Rex) the most recognizable tyrannosaur of all time, but it's also the most well-known dinosaur ever. T-Rex reigned at the end of the Age of the Dinosaurs, but it took a long and successful bloodline for the Prehistoric King to reach his rightful throne above all else. And that rich history is what we're about to unveil.

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In the Beginning
Late Jurassic — 160,000,000 years ago
We're going to start this story off some 95 million years before the emergence of T-Rex with its great great great [...] grandfather; Guanlong wucaii. At no more than 3 meters (10 feet) long Guanlong certainly is not the picture perfect tyrannosaurid by any means. Unlike the descendants who had short arms and two-fingered hands Guanlong bared long arms with three fingers — useful for grappling prey. Yet the most noticeable characteristic was Guanlong's ginormous crest upon its head. This crest was thin and possibly hollow with the intention of display.

Guanlong also had some key features that will one day be passed down to later tyrannosaurs. These include broad teeth and a uniquely shaped pelvis. Although despite being a basal tyrannosaur, Guanlong itself is a descendant of even more primitive coelurosaurs.

Early Cretaceous — 126,000,000 years ago
Our next entry will be the “Emperor Dragon”; Dilong paradoxus. And unfortunately, it too wasn't much to look at as Dilong was also a very basic tyrannosaur. However, unlike the earlier Guanlong, Dilong did not possess an extravagant crest but did keep its feathered coat [a trait which Guanlong probably had as well].
Despite being a primitive tyrannosaur Dilong had some interesting traits that can be found in nearly all of the later tyrannosaurs these include a rounded jaw, fused nasal bones, and excessive sinuses.

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The Transition
Early Cretaceous — 100,000,000 years ago
And this is the part of our story when things are kicked into maximum overdrive for the teeny tyrants. Because with the emergence of the intermediate-sized Xiangguanlong everything changes. Because at this is the point of tyrannosaur evolution we start seeing their arms beginning to shrink and the skulls gradually appear to become a little more box-like in shape like the later tyrannosaurids. Looking at Xiangguanlong's spine it is important to note that the vertebrae are more robust. This can be seen as an evolutionary upgrade to better support the massive heads dinosaurs like T-Rex will one day acquire.

Two very similar tyrannosaurs to Xiangguanlong are the Asian Alectrosaurus whom appeared much later. And Aliormaus a tyrannosaur with a long snout that seems to have split away to it's own evolutionary branch.

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Nearing the End
Late Cretaceous — 75,000,000 years ago
At last, here we are, at the final stages of the evolutionary history. North America during the Late Cretaceous was a hayday for many tyrannosaur species and has proven to be rather confusing for paleontologists to wrap their heads around. In the Eastern portion of N. America you had the oddball tyrannosaurids like Appalachiosaurus while in the Western portion of N. America you saw various species coexisting with one another.

Tyrannosauridae can be broken up into two different subfamilies: Albertosaurinae and Tyrannosaurinae. In the subfamily Albertosaurinae you had the albertosaurines... Albertosaurus and Gorgosaurus. Still with me here? And the albertosaurines are considered a sister taxon to the tyrannosaurines (a subfamily which includes heavyweights like Daspletosaurus, Tarbosaurus, and T-Rex).

Albertosaurus and Gorgosaurus are both practically the same size reaching 8-9 meters (27-30 feet) in length with some Albertosaurus specimens reaching 10 meters. Both animals weighed approximately 2 tons and were relatively slender in build with lower skulls with a sharp crest from the lacrimal bone located above the eye. Other key differences for the albertosaurines were in their legs as they had shorter ilia and longer tibiae compared to the tyrannosaurines.
In fact, there has been some controversy over the differences of Albertosaurus and Gorgosaurus.

And with that we are almost done. So don't close the tab just yet! We still have the final act, the tyrannosaurines…

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The Final Act
It's been about around 100 million years since their start, but the tyrannosaurs have come far in evolution. They have been the apex predators in their ecosystems for sometime now and they only continue to grow. It seems that nothing can stop them now...well, except for a six mile wide asteroid screaming towards Earth...but that's later.

Picking up at about the same time as earlier we investigate the newest baddy on plains; Daspletosaurus. And Daspletosaurus was much like the other multi-tonned tyrannosaurs with puny arms although not quite as large as T-Rex whom will appear in a few million years.
There is also extensive fossil evidence that shows that Daspletosaurus often coexisted with another tyrannosaur; the previously mentioned Gorgosaurus. But unlike Gorgosaurus the Daspletosaurus was larger and much more robust with a more powerful head than the albterosaurines. Though despite this head difference the teeth were about equivalent in strength which indicates a difference in feeding and diets. Both apex predators were able to coexist together mostly because they both served their own environmental niches. It is likely that the much more common Gorgosaurus fed on the easier-to-kill duck-billed hadrosaurs while the less common Daspletosaurus feasted on the horned ceratopsians of the time.
Daspletosaurus was perhaps the most advanced tyrannosaur up until the appearance of T-Rex. So much so in fact that the general consensus amongst paleontologists is that Daspletosaurus is a direct basal relative of T-Rex through anagenesis.

Meanwhile, back in Asia, some tyrannosaurs continue to thrive. One in particular that I must mention before we reach T-Rex is Tarbosaurus bataar.
Some scientists believe that Tarbosaurus is an Asian representative of T-Rex. This would make “Tarbosaurus” become invalid as T-Rex was named and described first. If these two are not synonymous, Tarbosaurus is at least a closely related sister taxa.
Some differences between Tarbosaurus bataar and Tyrannosaurus rex is the fact that Tarbosaurus is slightly smaller in size at 10 - 12 meters, has a smaller skull (but larger than all other tyrannosaurids), narrower skull, and slightly more teeth (58-64) than the T-Rex.

(L): Tarbosaurus bataar; (R): Tyrannosaurus rex
However, in 2003, analysis of an Alioramus skull showed that it was the closest relative to Tarbosaurus instead. The investigation showed that Tarbosaurus and Alioramus shared stress distribution characteristics in their skull...which appears to be unique among these two. If true, it would be used as evidence to keep Tarbosaurus and T-Rex as separate genus and would also indicate that Asian tyrannosaurids experienced a slightly different path of evolution. But more fossil evidence is needed for a clear answer.

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Late Cretaceous — 65,000,000 years ago
And finally, here we are. Tyrannosaurus rex, the Tyrant Lizard King. I can go on to write a novel about T-Rex alone, but I'm not. And it has come to my realization that this article is getting pretty lengthy as it is so I'll be ending it here as we're all familiar with T-Rex. But if anyone is interested in seeing an article about T-Rex specifically in the future just ask!

Without further ado, I thank you for reading.

So, another year over and all that happened, all I can say is "Thank you, 2018, but so long, farewell and piss off!"

I'm not going to lie, it was pretty crap: a crap start and it barely got much better!

It seems that almost every modern day animal has some sort of giant and extinct ancestor, doesn't it? Sloths, bears, sharks, camels, and even beavers to name a few. But this time we're learning about big ol’ kangaroos.
Procoptodon goliah to be exact. Standing anywhere from astounding 2 - 2.7m (6.6 ft - 8.8 ft) tall and weighing approximately 200 - 240 kg (440 - 530 pounds) puts this giant short-faced kangaroo at three times the size as the largest modern relative. But not so fast! Not all members of the genus Procoptodon were huge, some like P. gilli were the smallest of all the short-faced kangaroos (Sthenurinae) at merely a meter tall.

Back to P. goliah...it is possible that due to it's size the animal was incapable of hopping — a defining characteristic for modern kangaroos. Being as large as it was P. goliah had a much higher risk of tendon breakage if it was hopping. Instead, a more plausible form of transportation would have been as an unguligrade biped; similar to the great apes.

Unfortunately, however, much like the rest of the megafauna, Procoptodon too dipped into extinction. During the Pleistocene epoch climate change and human interference we're both substantial factors in the extinction of many animals. However, there is currently no evidence in the fossil record to suggest that humans hunted Procoptodon — not to mention the early humans arrived on Australia 10-15,000 years before the disappearance of the short-faced kangaroos. So human interference is no longer considered as a major factor.

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On a somewhat related note. I wonder what would happen if that was a P. goliah that the man punched…

You think you have came up with a completely unique name but when you google it there's always that one guy from a random site who somehow managed to think of the exact same thing as you; even though what you thought of really isn't based on anything. Everytime.

As per tradition, I'm writing a new post since things have changed again.

A little while back, I went from C Falcon to Captain. I even had a name council and everything. I was much cooler back then. Now I am less cool, but still me.

So why the change to Cap? Well, if you look at the old post, that was the first name on the list. I've been going by Cap pretty much everywhere now. Captain was a good name, but that implies that I'm a leader, which I am not or at least have proved not to be.

I am, however, still here. I will be here, but my intentions have changed. I wrote about it in the last Neoblogs. I will be the same member I used to be, but without tags. I don't take that weight too well, even if it isn't the same as it might have been in the past. I don't deserve it.


So I'm just Cap. Cap can mean many things. It can be short for Captain (which is the intended use). It can be short for "Capacity" which is sort of an allusion to my relationship to my activity here. It can be a type of headwear which I have many of at my apartment. Did I mention I have 4 Utah Jazz caps? No? Well, I do!

Anyhow, I'll see you around the forums. I'm still pretty much everywhere.

Howdy!

So I haven't blogged for about 5 years and like most of my past posts I have ever made I cringe into a ball looking back over some of the drivel that I have spouted. So 5 years on I thought I would spout some more drivel for you. Farewell to those thats minds have already switched off and that have already engineered their daring escape by clicking on anything other than this post.

My working life has differed slightly since we last spoke as I ceased working for the Army 5 miles from my house 3 years ago and now work for the RAF 30 miles from my house. 25 miles may not sound like much of a difference but with early morning traffic it really is. What used to be a 10 minute drive to work is often taking over an hour and has been known to exceed 2 hours in bad traffic. Thank goodness I have a lot of music stored in my car to sing (badly) to or rap (passably) to on my way to work. I hopefully have a promotion in the pipeline by the end of the year so I can finally achieve my dream of moving into my own place whilst simultaneously being able to afford to survive at the same time. Ah the high life!
On the whole though my working situation has improved as I feel a hundred times more valued at my new job in High Wycombe than I did at my job in Arborfield. I even got a hundred pound bonus the other week which I suspect was due to me going on leave for two and a half weeks and my office wanting to dissuade me from doing that sort of thing again as they suddenly realised how much stuff doesn’t get done when I’m not there. So although the commute is a pain and my mileage now resembles a small country’s Defence Budget, it is more rewarding and there is much more potential to progress upwards. The only line I would draw is moving to High Wycombe itself as I don’t fancy living in a place thats main source of business growth is through handbrake repair and pothole-filling.

As I had previously mentioned I had recently been on leave as I travelled to Barcelona for a week on holiday at the end of September. This was a special holiday as it was the first time I had travelled abroad completely on my own, plus I stayed in Mataro which is a Spanish town a few miles down the coast from Barcelona, meaning that I was probably the only native English speaker for 20 miles. I had tried to learn some Spanish the previous year but I was hopelessly out of practice so resorted to blurting Spanish words, gesturing, pointing, using Google Translate and just generally acting like a thoughtless British tourist, which for some reason the Mataro residents did not warm to. Regardless of that I had a very enjoyable time, went into Barcelona a few days, saw Barcelona vs Girona at the Nou Camp, went to see Sagrada Familia and Casa Mila twice (Gaudi was an absolute genius!) and just generally touristed around the Catalan region. My tan is long gone sadly but I have some good memories despite not having a proper conversation with someone for at least 4 straight days of the holiday! It certainly cost enough anyway.

The reason I was holidaying alone was due to that I had ended my relationship of 6 years in around July 2017 and others weren’t able to afford/make it with me. I finally took the decision to end things with her following what I adjudged to be about Strike Six in our relationship where she has got too drunk and gone absolutely crazy at me for no reason and embarrassed everybody involved. The final nail was when she did this in front of my friends who saw for the first time that my shocking stories were not fabricated. Anyway I digress, I ended it at the start of July 17 and I have not heard from her since then, so nothing further to report there.

However, if you couple that life-changing event with the fact that my hero, Chester Bennington, committed suicide shortly after, sadly I spiralled downwards from there and found myself grappling with depression. I think I honestly found it to be a shock to the system in realising that I wasn’t 21 and pretty anymore and the girls weren’t all falling over themselves for me. Back when I was single when I was 21/22 life was a lot simpler and normally when I showed a girl I was interested in her then the feeling was mutual but now I am approaching 30, look much older and am still receding so much that it even affects anyone that stands too close behind me, things are very different. Most of the females here my age are either taken or stark raving mad and the younger ones are more interested in my little brother who is basically me but 6 years younger (and with a slightly less huge head the lucky rascal!).
So yes I have been basically bobbing up and down the last year and a half having a good few months every so often and then after having a setback I’ve gone straight back down again. It is probably coupled with some sort of early mid-life crisis as my age is really starting to become a worry for me. I haven’t been alone fortunately, a few casual things here and there. I also started a relationship with another girl that she then inexplicably ended after a couple of months despite being the one trying to make the relationship more serious and even wanting to meet my parents. I think this has led to me having trust issues when it comes to women and I’ve just been turned off getting into any more relationships, not that there’s any females that want a relationship with me at the moment anyway haha. Anyway, I’m trying to pull myself out of that but as those of you that have suffered from depression know, it’s not something that you can just flip a switch and cure. The best I can do is keep trying to progress in the world and give myself reasons to be positive. I re-joined the gym about 5 months ago and I’m quite pleased with the results of that, whether I can achieve the goal of bulking up so much that my head actually looks normal-sized by comparison remains to be seen!

I have been reduced to visiting Neoseeker on my phone and sometimes during very quiet periods at work. This is mainly down to a lack of time but also because my laptop at home messed itself up over a year ago and it has taken me until Tuesday of this week to order a new one. The delay is mainly down to me letting my Dad identify the laptop that was best value for money considering what I was after and it has taken a long time as my Dad has been very unwell with serious migraines for many months now and hasn’t been able to check for me. But my new laptop should arrive Friday so I might be able to contribute more from now on.

Finally I bring my apologies to the people of Loungin’, I have not posted in that forum since May 2017 since that thread on the Manchester bombings where I was called a victim-blamer for not just simply posting “RIP” like a sheep. It was at that point where people agreed with the general message I was making but chose to personally attack me that I really had had enough of that particular forum and the hypocrisy that flows through it. Just because I didn’t make lots of posts about how awful the attack was people assumed that I hadn’t paid my respects to the victims, or worse yet, that I thought the victims deserved it by association with evil western powers. Now I appreciate most were ignorant of this but I have a friend who lost one of their close friends at those bombings, so the insinuation from some members that I didn’t care about any of the victims was not only completely incorrect but also incredibly offensive to me.
I have received a few mentions from people in Loungin’ over the past year and a bit which has been nice and the fact that I was still somehow in the nominations for Funniest Member was very touching and my thanks go to whomever mentioned me. However I am not posting in that forum again. I’ve seen too many instances of senior members try to derail Loungin’ threads to suit their own agenda or try and make themselves look more knowledgeable. I want no truck with any of that. Funnily enough that Manchester Bombing thread was completely derailed well after I decided to stop posting in it but no one seemed to care then. Now I stick mainly to the Football Forum and forums of whichever games I’m playing, current ones being FIFA 19, Red Dead 2 and God of War.

Reading over this again I realise this post started as happy and chirpy but it has got steadily more negative. Oops! It wasn’t intentional! I didn’t mention that I’m still doing script-writing with my friend so I hope this sort of thing doesn’t come across in my scripts!
I hope you all are well and I wish you a wonderful Christmas holiday and New Year if we don’t speak before then.

I wish to explain myself and my relationship with the site going forward.


I would like to formally/informally request my demotion from Tabletop Games with this post. I will site why I am demoting, the future of my activity with that forum, and my relationship with this site as a whole.


First, my time at Tabletop was quite eventful. We had gone from being a fairly dead Miscellaneous Games forum to Tabletop Gaming with a new identity. Enthusiasm was high then. We had several games running and plenty of interest. I, with the help of Vast, cleaned up old threads and gave the forum a fresh look. The foundation looks pretty good so far. Time passed and enthusiasm dropped. I understand. People work. People get busy. I did too. The enthusiasm hasn't really returned, partly due to me not trying. That shouldn't have to happen. If people were interested in playing games, they can take the initiative themselves. I can understand my promotion at the time. I was very much ready to make games and create a fun atmosphere. It worked for a moment. Unlike other, better mods here, I don't inspire others. I'm an instrument rather than a conductor. It isn't the fault of the Super team I was placed in charge. No. I showed that I might have that potential, but I don't. I guess I should have understood that in my time at Food & Cooking too. It is almost the exact same story.

Moving to my second point, I will not leave Tabletop or Retro or Food & Cooking. I won't even leave the site. I just don't think I want to mod ever again. I am not your guy. I don't have the leadership skills required to be a good mod. I will continue on making games and trying my best to promote activity, but I believe I fail when I take on the next step in responsibility. Maybe I am being overly dramatic about what it means to be a mod, but shouldn't that be something that someone takes pride in being? Shouldn't I be doing my best for the forum instead of phoning in effort? I know the site as a whole isn't what it once was, but I still hold the idea of what mods of the past used to be. I would have already been demoted if I was modding back then with this sort of effort.

This moves to my final point which is my relationship with the site. There are some members I know who are doing a great job in shaping potential framework for the future of this site. I believe in them and want them to succeed. I think the overall direction of this site should echo their push. I know there are members who, once they ascertain this direction, will be able to continue the push. I am not one of those members. I am dead weight. A remnant of the past that cannot move forward. While there are other members like that here, they are more in the nostalgic camp while I'm just unable to keep up with the times in general. It isn't about pining for the past. It is just me unable to be a member of the future. Talking about this out loud to myself, I learned that I'm just not part of the community like I thought I was.

I will remain hopeful for the site. I will continue doing what I've been doing until I'm gone. As someone once said, and I paraphrase, I'm just a Rattata and I'm not even in the top percentage of Rattata.

Tagging the Super team to process this demotion request.

Gotenks Saku Avalith Chelskiman Mister MacPhisto

I'm a movie buff. I'm usually at the movies on my days off if there's something playing that interests me. And 2018 has been a pretty good year for films. Here are the 20 movies that I've enjoyed the most that were released in this year.

NOTE: I haven't seen Crazy Rich Asians, Chappaquiddick, Mission Impossible: Fallout, A Star is Born, Love: Simon, A Quiet Place, or Isle of Dogs. If I had, some of them might have made this list.

NOTE #2: I saw Teen Titans Go To the Movies and Tully. I genuinely hated them both.

Here we go.

20. Pacific Rim Uprising
I didn't see the first Pacific Rim, so the plot of this one kind of lost me. It was OK.

19. The House With a Clock in Its Walls
Jack Black is still hilarious, but this one was just...meh.

18. The Meg
Jaws on steroids. That's basically it.

17. Smallfoot
Saw this one with my younger cousin. It was better than I thought it was going to be.

16. Rampage
I'll see anything with The Rock in it. Besides that, it had a giant gorilla, a flying wolf, and...not much else. Still OK, though.

15. Venom
The plot was confusing, but I kinda enjoyed this one. Sue me.

14. Avengers: Infinity War
Points detracted for the downer ending.

13. Solo: A Star Wars Story
Enjoyed this one a lot less than The Last Jedi and Rogue One. Still head and shoulders better than the prequels, though.

12. Halloween
Nothing will ever beat the John Carpenter original, but this one was a darn good watch.

11. The Last Movie Star
I'm a fan of Burt Reynolds, and it was filmed in my home state of TN, so I had to see it. Pretty darn good, but I'll probably never watch it again.

10. Won't You Be My Neighbor?
Grew up on Mr. Rogers, and I hope Tom Hanks can do him justice in the upcoming movie.

9. Ant-Man and the Wasp
Again, points detracted for the ending.

8. Deadpool 2
Ryan Reynolds hasn't lost a beat as the Merc with the Mouth. Much prefer this version of him to a fuzzy yellow electric rat.

7. Bohemian Rhapsody
I'm a massive fan of rock music, and this film gives a very insightful look at the band Queen. The historical inaccuracies did irk me, but not enough to detract from really, really liking this movie.

6. Incredibles 2
Best animated film of the year.

5. First Man
Highly recommend this one if you're a space buff like me.

4. Christopher Robin
I grew up on Winnie-the-Pooh, and seeing all the characters come to life in a real-world setting was a very welcome shot to my childhood.

3. Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom
I also grew up on the Jurassic Park franchise as well. A very fitting sequel to Jurassic World.

2. Ready Player One
I read the book and absolutely loved it, and the movie didn't disappoint either. So much nostalgia crammed into 2 hours.

1. Black Panther
Just barely beats out RP1. My new favorite Marvel movie after Guardians of the Galaxy. Very fleshed-out characters and amazing scenery to boot.

With just over one month left in the year, can any films squeeze their way into my top 20? We'll see on New Year's Eve!

so uh. yeah things have happened

ive been engaged (not anymore)
i graduated college
i bought a new car
i was arrested once on drug charges like three years ago
and i had a baby boy about three months ago

i figured maybe it was time for an update

Australia, the land down under, has a reputation across the globe of being a land of isolation. The land of marsupials. Nowadays kangaroos, koalas, and wombats are famous icons but during the Pleistocene things were a little different. Back before the changes in climate and before human interferences there once was an apex predator that stalked the scrublands and woodlands; the marsupial lion. However, despite its name, this animal was not closely related to a lion at all as it was a member of the order Diprotodontia. The correct binomial name was in fact Thylacoleo carnifex.

Thylacoleo was the largest carnivorous mammal to ever roam Australia and among the largest predatory marsupials worldwide. Thylacoleo is estimated to have weighed anywhere from 250-350 lbs (130-160kg) making it comparable in size to female lions and tigers.
Thylacoleo was heavily robust and beared impressive forelimbs armed with retractable claws used to grapple prey and climb trees.
Although this marsupial's mouth is really what's jaw dropping. Pun intended. By analyzing Thylacoleo's dentition it is clear that this was a specialized carnivore. Thylacoleo packed some enlarged incisors on both top and bottom jaws, but they were sharp like canines. While the carnassial premolars were gigantic and blade-like. These carnassials that were placed above and below acted like scissors and were gruesomely efficient at shearing off chunks of flesh and cutting bone.
To wrap up this deadly package Thylacoleo’s bite was considerably strong...one of the strongest in its class. Combine that with the animal's specialized teeth and it was capable of tackling the largest Australian prey and killing them in only a couple of minutes. Being so specialized in slaughtering big game meant Thylacoleo wasn't efficient at hunting smaller game which may have contributed to its extinction once humans came along.

Being that this is a multiple of 10, I thought I'd give it a title.


I just turned 14 on this site not too long ago. I've seen a lot, but other have seen way more than I have. Remember when these Neoblogs were talking about my Neolife?

I guess I will touch upon things from the past this time around.


Currently, there's only 3 active members from my past on this site. One of them is only semi-active. I see a lot of hopes for others from the past to come back and I used to be in that boat too. I feel like wanting something is futile. I can tag my old friends until the cows come home, but at the end of the day there's plenty of you out there that make this site sort of home to me. There's plenty of you out there from the past too. I never met people like Kid Clutch or Vicarious until recently, but they seem like decent dudes.


I used only used to go to a handful of forums back in the day and really that was all I needed. Do I wish it was still like that? Eh. I kind of got used to being everywhere. It's made me more social here and while I know I'm no one's favorite user, I'm just glad I can be a part of something.


So, enough of the the despair. Hopes and dreams.

In the next year I hope to have more Neopoints and posts. I hope to continue playing games and making some of my own. There's IRP people I'd like to get to know better like orez, The Lost Soul, and SirLagsALot.

I can also hope to keep up game time in Tabletop. I would like to get back into talking about cooking in Food & Cooking. I want to have some money chatter in Careers & Finance. Maybe I set sights on Academia and talk about...smart stuff. Kind of hard when I'm Neoseeker's self proclaimed Site Moron.

Dreams. I told myself I would stop dreaming since things never come true and I'm the worst at trying. I guess I have one stupid dream that'll never happen because it is completely unnecessary and I doubt I could handle it and that's one day get a Cat spot for Special Interest. I guess dreaming can't hurt. It isn't reality.


I don't know why, but I feel like this video goes well with this post.



I wonder if that commercial was still running when I started this account?

It's been a bit but I'm back with a real Neo Blog.

Things have plateaued for me. Went though some bad days, but I haven't really wanted to quit here in a while. It's always been the same with me. Still think I'm doing a bad job in Tabletop, but I've been told I'm not. I guess I'll accept that. I'm trying not to think of things like I had been.

Played a mafia game in IRP since sword_of_omens was running a theme he really liked. Sword's a good buddy. I'd join his game for sure.

Got a new game brewing. It was going to be a mafia game and then it turned into a hybrid mafia game. Now it looks like a board game with mafia elements. It might just turn out to be too ambitious. I should really stick to a skeletal structure, but I have so many cool ideas that I wanna do them all.

Fun fact, I just tried to change my username to just Cap. It wouldn't let me. It said "Username already exists." I don't see it actually. What gives?

I wanna join this new mafia game, but I don't know how much time I'll have in the coming month. Work is kicking me in the teeth. I also don't know the theme very well. Australian Rock isn't in my wheelhouse. Uh...AC/DC. That's all I got.

I guess I didn't know Thundercats that well either, but I was intrigued by that at least. I kind of want to watch the show now that the game is over. Shout out to The Lost Soul for helping me out there.

That's it. I still kind of want to be just Cap. If it isn't in the cards, it isn't in the cards. Go vote for the Neo Awards thing.