ZL's Blog

So the NeoRaffles are looking good for me so far. I just won the logo contest and got 750 Points extra for me to use. I really feel like going for the Banner contest, but I feel it's unfair. Not because I think I'll win (I'm not much of a prick), but it's a dick thing to do if you end up winning the entire thing. It makes you look like a total ass and I don't feel liking sending out that message.

So, this is my firs time ever experiencing the Neo Raffles and I think they're great. So far I offered so much stuff. Haha. I can accomplish all of it, I'm sure, but it feels like it might take me a little while. Specially the digital downloads, but no one should complain since I'm doing this for free. But let's leave the anticipation till the 18th. I might offer some more stuff, so if you guys have ideas let me know. =P

Also, recently I noticed I've gotten quite popular over Neo for some odd reason. I have no clue what it is but a lot of people are noticing me a lot know which is kinda cool, but sort of a drag at the same time. I've gotten some people PM me here and there asking me to be my friend, but I don't mind really but it really feels like I'm not going to put up much effort in the friendship and then thought to be an ass of some sort. I always found it quite ludicrous to ask someone to be your friend and then after some fun PMs here and there completely forget about them.

Then there's the good thing about it because back when I first joined, I could never be recognized by the likes of people such as Yug and U_Turn. I've been knowing Yug for quite a while, not too long, but enough to know him well. U_Turn was the one that surprised me though. I never talked to him, never really knew him personally, but I still somehow managed to get on his "Cool" List haha. Which I thought he was just joking at first, but it turns out he thinks I'm a cool guy. I feel the same about him and always thought he was, but now I feel we're on the same level now. Haha.

Then there's Arc and Harvest. Turns out that I've been having their MSN's since the dawn of time, but I never realized it. That was some awkward stuff right there, but it's nice that I'm clearing out that 200 something list of people that I have no clue who they are.

Finally, there's my real life. I can't help but feel utterly depressed. Not the the point of committing suicide, but enough to keep the down during the day. It's getting harder and harder to find motivation throughout these tough days. My best friend and I are hardly hanging out, and it's really putting me down for some reason. I have no clue if it's because I might have feelings for her, but I doubt it. Of course, lately we have had an improvement for the past few days because we're talking more often which is good. Means my life is starting to turn around, but it's not enough. I can't really help that Neo is almost the only thing I do every day. I don't even know why I get on to be honest, I enjoy it and I enjoy talking to some of my close friends on MSN, but if it's starting to make me feel a little depressed, I think it's time to get off. Or least do something else, like playing sports. I need to work out, which is near impossible with the type of brothers I have.

All they do is snack on junk food and since my mother doesn't make to many big meals for me to get food, I end up wanting to snack later on. What's worse is that they end up eating half of the healthy stuff first. Like fruits. They should let me eat that shit, they can all the junk food they want and still be in shape. I know I was when I was a kid. Always running around like there's no tomorrow. Now that I'm older, my metabolism has slowed down a lot and I get lazy. I need that healthy food. I'm so ashamed of myself. I wish someone could tell me the right words to motivate me.