Vermillion blogged

It Is Really The First Time ... :(

Okay, I actually wanted to post this long ago somewhere, but I couldn't because there was nowhere to go.

Last Friday, I went with my dad to his parent's 5th Anniversary, where I actually met two beautiful angels that cheered me up... Until they left. Finally, I met two cousins, who are aged 3 and 6, and I never though I could actually give them all the love I gave them. That Friday night, I couldn't help but notice how they felt embarrassed of nothing, I tried to talk to them, and both of them went behind their parents.
So on Saturday, again with my dad, we went to have lunch to his parent's house, and my cousins were right there. They were trying to watch High School Musical 3, but their DVD was screwed. So I went ahead, tried to see what was wrong with that DVD, and we came to the conclusion the freaking DVD was ruined. So, to keep them entertained, we started to talk about "eating the DVD" (you know, this kind of things that children laugh to), and I was able to play with them after. The problem with them is that they live in Santa Cruz, not on my city.
Boy, we inflated one of those boats you use in the pool (well, I inflated it, and they liked the fact that I was basically purple for wasting too much air...), they sat on the boat and made me pull them on it... And then my aunts took me home. We though it was going to be the last time this year we would see each other. The smaller one was pressing my hand incredibly hard so I can't leave. So they left, and it was the very first time in my life, I felt sad for something like that. Even my parents are divorced, and my dad leaves actually in Spain, but when he left, I didn't feel what I felt when I said good-bye to these little ones. They left just Wednesday, so on Monday I called my aunt and almost begged her to let me see the girls. I took them (with my aunt) to eat some ice cream, and I bought them this famous "Petz" that are very cool for these little ones. Then finally, the night came in, and again the little one wouldn't let me go. Her mom was saying "he won't cry" (and in fact, the first thing I did when I came to my room was cry all over my pillow :P), and they finally gave me the goodbye kiss. I was the first one the younger sister has kissed in the world; and I felt incredibly proud about that fact, because I was able to love them, and they were able to love me.

Again, I can't believe I actually felt sad, angry, and happy. It was a feeling I wasn't able to experience even though a lot of people I like has left the country. When my dad left when I was 9, nothing happened to me, now these little ones left, and I just can't keep my mind away of them.

Maybe I feel sad, angry and happy because I just met them, and they moved to the other city just about 4 months ago, or so my dad says. I made them have a great time, so did they with me. It's just a whole mix of feelings that I can't explain, and I hope I get better soon, because I will meet this little ones soon, they have invited me to come over when we have a Holiday, and now I am begging for that to happen soon.

If you read all that, thanks, you made me a huge favor (: .




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Xenctuary Nov 27, 08
That's pretty cool man, hopefully you'll be able to see them again soon!
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Blackfalcon Nov 27, 08
Awwww... Such a heartfelt story that made me happy. =)
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Vermillion Nov 27, 08
Thanks guys (:.

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Lyonnais Apr 24, 10
I understand a bit better now. Made me pretty happy reading it.
Tread on man, and hope you see them again soon! =]
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Vermillion Apr 25, 10
Thanks man. Ever since this blog post, I have seen them a couple of times and we have had a hell of fan. Haha, I can be such a clown and child when I'm with them. Right now I'm missing them a hell of a lot, I highly hope I can see them on Winter.
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