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Goodbye Neoseeker


As I type, I've broken down into tears. I don't know if I can stand it much longer.

Lately it's been hell for me, and I ca't cope anymore. So it's for this reason that I've decided to leave. I don't know what I'm going to do. Maybe I'll kill myself. All I know is that I can't cope with what's been going on in my life. So thank you. Thank you to everyone for the experience.

This is the last you'll hear from me for a while.

But thank you. All of you. Even if you were a complete asshole to me. Thank you.

Please spread this around to everyone I know. I'd really appreciate it.

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    Ripulse since Jul 2008 | Feb 7, 09
    Goodbye. I'm not really that good at saying goodbye to people, but... thanks for being a great member; I can't really say we were friends. I hope you'll be feeling happy again soon. Don't kill yourself.

    That's all I can really say.
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    Lost in Azure since Oct 2007 | Feb 7, 09
    Bye KI. ;-;
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    PR since Dec 2008 | Feb 7, 09
    Sad to see you go. You're a great guy.
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    ShinyMilotic since Aug 2007 | Feb 7, 09
    Don't kill yourself KI, you'll regret it in the future[/lol]

    Anyway, see you when you come back, and if you don't (which is not likely) then bye byes.
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    Dragon ZERO since Feb 2008 | Feb 7, 09
    Dude, dont kill yourself. EVER!

    Even if you hate your life, if you kill yourself, you'll just make your family miserable. So if you cant go on for yourself, do it for your family.

    Good bye man, but remeber: NEVER COMMIT SUICIDE!
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    Arias since Apr 2007 | Feb 7, 09
    Come bekkk Icarus.
    I feel really bad for laughing in a thread about possible suicide... ShinyMilotic made me laugh with the 'future' comment. D:
    But there's always another way. Suicide isn't the only option.
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    Crusad3r since Apr 2006 | Feb 7, 09
    Err, you know, since you're in the same city as me, we probably should meet up and see what's bothering you? Perhaps I can help?
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    Lone Wolf nWo since Apr 2003 | Feb 7, 09
    I'll miss you.
    I barely knew you, but I'll miss you.
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    Adapt since Sep 2008 | Feb 7, 09
    Miguel, you were one of the greatest people I knew on this site. You were a great friend, and I'm sorry to see you go.

    I hope everything turns out well for you. It's been great knowing you Miguel.

    ~On the brink of insanity~
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    Flippy since Nov 2008 | Feb 7, 09
    In all of my attempts to spread Mother 3 you were the first one to actually try, Sad to see you go, we have too much in common. =3

    Paalam pare, Di kita makakalimutan.

    Flippydit: WAIT! "For a while?!" ah, i see someday then.
    you can't kill yourself, we haven't even pulled the prank on Big A2!
    Last edited by Flippy :: Feb 7, 09
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    alpha XF since Aug 2006 | Feb 7, 09
    If your life is really that shitty, I
    recommend getting hold of some weed (out of all
    seriousness) or seeing a doctor. Even if you're against
    weed for some effed up reason, it's helped me
    overcome death. Against it or not, anything will always be
    better than death. If you have access to neither weed nor
    doctor, pack your shit and stay with a friend until things
    get better. Even an online friend to go to is good, but do
    something, anything. Don't sit still and invite the
    suffering to drain your soul.



    With my shitty life, I've sunk into depression and have had
    thoughts of suicide many times during the past 3
    years due to reasons most likely worse than yours (just
    an assumption
    ). I mean, really? you're going to give up
    on life because a few little things went bad? Don't be an arse.


    There's always going to be someone out there who'll have it
    worse than you and still have the strength to live on.
    There are *bleep*ing kids out there in the Middle East that
    have witnessed their families shot dead before their eyes,
    and still live on. They use the suffering they experienced,
    and turn it upon itself. They liberate and prevent others from
    experiencing the same suffering they were put through.


    Not having anything to live for is reason enough to live
    on. Use the suffering you're going through and turn it against
    itself. Live on, and make sure no one suffers the
    same way you did. Think of all of the people just like you out
    there that are going through the same exact thing. If you give
    up, those around you will give up.


    Live on.


    Create a new hope for the weak and figure a way to end the
    suffering that consumes this planet and victimizes those like
    yourself. Take the burden off of thousands of
    shoulders and place it upon your own. Only then will you be
    able to let go, knowing others will not have to suffer
    because of your actions.


    Do not let go as a mortal; withstand the burden of those
    who have fallen victim to the same pain you experience now.
    Lift the pain off their souls. Gain immortality in their
    eyes.


    Let go now, and you shall never be mourned with tears of sorrow and grief.
    Let go now, and you shall never be mourned with tears of the liberated.
    Let go now, and you shall never be the savior of victims like yourself.


    Only a victim himself can understand another of the same
    nature. Do not let go. Do not let everything slip away and
    follow suite with your predecessors. Be the first to break
    free of the inevitable cycle this suffering reprimands.


    Live on, and rid others of the suffering you are experiencing.
    Live on, and show the weak a new 'morrow.
    Live on, and live forever in their eyes.
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    Awsomness since Dec 2008 | Feb 7, 09
    Mig,
    Please don't go and especialy don't die.You were my sisters best friend and i am sure you don't just want to leave her right now.Or everyone for that matter.And most of all,i don't want to see you go.But it's up to you from now on.




    -Awsomness-
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    Harvest Moon Angel since Jul 2007 | Feb 7, 09
    Poor Kid... Sorry to hear your lifes been sucking. Hope things get better for you.
    Try to live. You never know what the future holds in store for you. So just try to keep living....
    I'll miss you.

    Also thanks for the awesome nickname ~mangel~.
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    Jazz since Aug 2008 | Feb 7, 09
    Holy shit. ;-;
    Man, you are probably my best friend, it is honestly really sad man, we are like, best buds.
    No man, no. You can't go. Seriously no. Please. No.
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    Tf916 since Oct 2006 | Feb 7, 09
    i hope everything works out for you
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    Bluepikky24 since Jun 2007 | Feb 7, 09
    Don't kill yourself, KI. That's what losers or people who have severe problems do. But seriously, I hope everything turns out alright for you. I'm going to miss you.
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    SSJ3 Trunks since Jul 2006 | Feb 7, 09
    KI you are an awesome person who needs to find out what to do to with his life, please keep living. Neo needs more members like you who keep things random and fun. Don't go!
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    Eunoia since Aug 2008 | Feb 7, 09
    Good god, kid. Kill yourself? Sure that'll solve your problem but do you know how many other problems you're gonna cause?
    You family. You think they wont care? Of course they will! They'll weep; probably for years. How does that make you feel? Knowing you'd be the cause of their sadness if you kill yourself.

    Suicide is the pathetic way out.
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    Kokoro since Jan 2004 | Feb 7, 09
    No, don't kill yourself! But if you are still leaving Neoseeker, bye.
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    BadWolf since Sep 2008 | Feb 7, 09
      Don't kill yourself. ;-;

      See you whenever man.
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    Vollando since Dec 2008 | Feb 7, 09

    your a great friend, imma sad to see you leave
    god bless ya
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    Naruto Boy since Jul 2006 | Feb 7, 09
    See ya, I'm not going to lie. I never really liked you because you were kinda annoying, especially with the youtube videos lulz. But don't kill yourself. And you were cool at times. And no I'm not trying to be a asshole @ everyone else. I mean cmon, I don't want a fight in his blog, especially what he seems to be going through.

    And don't pull a Pokeslicer (sp), just to make people feel bad for you. =/

    I'm not sure you know who that is/what happens with that incident though.

    But yeah take care, and I hope everything goes alright in your life.
    Last edited by Naruto Boy :: Feb 7, 09
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    Smiffers since Dec 2007 | Feb 7, 09
    Adios KI, don't kill yourself, honestly, we dont want another pokesplicer around here. Even though I hated your taste in music, that doesn't make you less of a great person.

    Goodbye.
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    Broken Rainbow since Dec 2008 | Feb 7, 09
    I hardly know you, but don't kill yourself, even if your life has been like hell, your 12(right? I read that in the interview) and when you get older, everything will be better.

    Anyway, goodbye, you've been a real good member in the City Folk forum, It's sad to see you go.
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    Agua since Feb 2004 | Feb 7, 09
    you'll be back,
    you can't resist my irresistible temptaion for long
    <3
    get better
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    Capn Droid since Jan 2006 | Feb 7, 09
    Honestly, anybody that says they're going to kill themselves because their life has failed on them is a coward, and hasn't yet lived. I've experienced shit, too. I have a run down house; my family has substandard finances; I don't get the best grades; my friend staged a fake suicide, and betrayed his trust against me and all of my friends. Do I pity myself? Do I view the world as a place of unending hatred, toil, and Hell? Do I anticipate the hardened kiss of death? No, and that's because I look forward to the good and bright future, however hard it may be to achieve. Yet even in my case, a child in Africa or the Middle East will envy my non-destroyed city; my connection to the world; my three meals a day without thought; my everything.

    For shame, I say to you, if you think that your life is so miserable, what with the resources that have been handed to you, that you must end your own life. Do they anger you, really? With the tools in your hands, you have the power to prove your superiority. You can show them all that you can cope with apparently the most distressing forces, and that you haven't lost to anybody's game. Think. Killing yourself only means that you've succumb to the power of depression. Prove it wrong. Prove that you're as strong as the child without a home, without food, without a family.
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    E4 MortY since Jul 2006 | Feb 8, 09
    See ya KI. You've done a lot in Diamond Forums. You were an awesome member. Sorry to see you go ;_;
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    WonderMailer since Nov 2008 | Feb 8, 09
    I swear to god, Miguel do NOT kill yourself. We've had talks about this, you know that my best friend did that. And it hurts man. Just seeing you leave neoseeker is bad enough. I'll miss you alot, Miguel. I love you. I hope you at least get on MSN once in a while. But whatever you do, don't hurt yourself. I still have to fly out to aussieland and meet you, don't you remember that?

    So, take your time, relax, sort out your life, and come back to us. Just don't, whatever you do, DON'T HURT YOURSELF. You are one of my best friends on neoseeker, and I will miss you greatly.

    :love:

    ~Daniel~
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    Boo since Aug 2007 | Feb 8, 09
    Oh KI, I may not have spoken to you for a while, but it's still sad to see you go. You made a huge influence on the Pokemon Forums and we'll all miss you greatly.
    Please don't do anything drastic, as the song says; "Things can only get better."

    B o o
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    Censored King since Oct 2007 | Feb 8, 09
    Don't kill yourself if you do then you lose,people go through alot of shit before they find gold.
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    Karis since Jun 2008 | Feb 8, 09
    Bye man who is great. You'll be missed.
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    Master Of Diamond since Sep 2007 | Feb 8, 09
    I know you didn't know me, but we've talked in the platinum gd's. Don't kill yourself, k? kthxbai.
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    jazjaz130 since Jul 2008 | Feb 9, 09
    you, cannot do that. Evenif youve expirienced the deepest of shit, you cant kill. yourself .

    well you cant do that, for any reason. If you are sad, remember the following saying.

    ~~Youare sad, decline thy feeling and always remember that you are happy, in your life. You are you and you are happy, just in a different way.~~

    I didnt know you but i wish to. Good-bye, ~jaz~
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    Razentsu since Mar 2008 | Feb 9, 09
    I don't know you, but I wish I did. You seem to be a nice guy.

    Please don't kill yourself, and good luck.
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    Akira since May 2002 | Feb 9, 09
    It's sad to see you're leaving neoseeker, but good luck on wherever you go. ^^

    ~Akira~
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    Nagare since Dec 2008 | Feb 10, 09
    Don't like to be blunt but only dumb asses that can't handle stress commit suicide.

    I was just beginning to respect you as a member because you have been maturing, but don't kill yourself.

    Just talk to your friends or family and you'll feel better.
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    Goldva_X since Mar 2008 | Feb 10, 09
    Do it. Kill yourself. I'd like to see you try.
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    devils avocate since May 2007 | Feb 11, 09
    It hurts me to see you like this. Every member I see on here I think of as part of a family. MY family.

    To see you go, even though we never knew each other more then by name, will pain me more then you could imagine.

    Even with what may go through your life right now.

    I must have been like you as a child(I mean I am not 12, I'm 18). Even now I am most likely still feeling similar to you. Since your age I have been feeling so mixed up inside. I never knew how to act, because someone was always correcting my actions. I never knew how I felt towards guys or girls, and always told that I should feel the opposite. I never was able to get a job, because of how I felt dealing with people, making sure they go the best thing they needed. Most of all, I was judged. By everyone I knew face to face. I was always looked upon as inadequate. I was never the go-to person. I always was the bottom of the barrel.

    I let it go.

    People never liked me when I had no idea what was going on, and I didn't either. I have contemplated suicide many a time over the course of 6 years. It is going to keep happening to me too, methinks.

    But I never let these things get to me. In my soul I realize that even if I think my family won't care if I go,(they WOULD care, it's just hard to see sometimes) I would always have my friends who would miss me. I would always know people who would mourn. I know that my friends here would always miss me. Think of us as your online family! People here are willing to help you face to face! People are giving you thier heartfelt thoughts on this, and no one who knows you a little wants to see you die. It is too much too put on those who care.

    We will all feel this at times. But you cannot blame yourself for this. There has to be someone that people can go to. I am willing to see you through everything that you are dealing with right now. I may not be able to see you face to face, but I can help you. I have been the mental anchor for around 15 people, and all of them have gotten better from where they stand. I have prevented suicides, and I can't stand back and watch a family member die. YOU CAN't DIE. I will do everything in my power to help you.

    Just remember that it is ok to feel this way, ok to cry, ok to take things when you are ready. Just don't give other people reason too. Don't give them the pain I felt for six years. I made that my purpose in life. To help people like you. But if you die...I can't think about it. I'm crying as it is. I'm going to find you.
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    Ultimate since Dec 2008 | Feb 12, 09
    I don't know you but your cool man. And don't kill yourself for some bullshit. And if you don't kill yourself come back on Neo everybody is going to miss you. Everybody goes through some shit. Its not worth killing yourself. Don't kill yurself cause if u do i'll revive you and do it my self. Baby come back... you can blame it all on me. =)
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    Vex the Pirate since Aug 2004 | Feb 13, 09
    You're so welcome.
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    Xoatl since Sep 2006 | Feb 14, 09
    WELL, GEE.

    YOU'RE A FAGGOT.
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    Mr Muffins since Feb 2008 | Feb 19, 09
    Suicide is the easy way out. If you can give in to the easy way, then go right ahead. But know this, nobody is so weak that they need to take the easy way out. There is no situation that can't be turned around with perseverence and a little luck.
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    Kittykratz since Aug 2008 | Mar 7, 09
    Even though I barely knew you, bye.

    Remember, suicide is never the best option. Things might get better in the future, but if you kill yourself, you will never know.
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