I've been thinking about making this post for some time now but never could quite make myself actually do it. But it's not good keeping things back, is it? Some things have to come out eventually.

If you've heard anything about me, it's probably of my sudden disappearance from Neoseeker — from the entire Internet, in fact. I'm afraid I made a lot of people worry. It's heartening to know that people cared, but truly, I'm sorry to have worried you so much!

So what did happen?

Without going into too much detail, it was basically this: I was in what had been a long term relationship that had suddenly — and violently — turned abusive. Looking back on it now, the signs were clearly there long before things reached a boiling point. If you knew where to look. Hindsight is always 20/20.

All things considered, I was really lucky. I had friends and family who stood by me and who helped me through all the pain and depression of the dark years ahead. Some people don't even have that much. It's with their help, and time, that I was able put my life back together — perhaps a little more damaged, but stronger for it.

-PS- If you or someone you know is in a relationship that is abusive, get help! Seek professional advice! If you can't or are unable to do that, then talk to someone, anyone, about what's happening. The first step to breaking the cycle of abuse is to let people know about it.

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